I have so much thing to say. But i dont know where to start? This is getting sick and tired you know. I dont ever know how I feel. I really dont know. Please dont do that to me. I dont like the way being treated by you. This feeling totally shucks. Really. I am tired of trying and yet I am afraid. Perhaps, i should take a break. Yeah. I know no matter I type thousands of word nor thousand of tears rolling down my cheek nothing will will happen but end up killing myself.

~~I cant find the words to say to tell you, that I feel this way.I want you.What can I do, to make you want me next to you.If you look at me, you will understand.All I want is to hold your hand,I have felt this way for so long.Wanting you is a dream,my heart aches I want to scream.I smile and laugh just thinking of you.Together now, I wish it was true. I always imagine your gentle touch.If only you knew, I felt this much not being with you, I'm falling apart I dont know how to get your heart.If you could only see the love in my eyes, and all those nights I sat and cried.Look at me, I'm waiting here. Just call my name, I'll be there. How long the wait? I don't know.When that day comes I will let it show. If only you knew, my feelings for you.Hopefully, you'll feel the same way too ~~

Today,went to Marsiling for EYES AMBASADOR house visit. Before that, we are suppose to meet 7.45 at Woodland Mrt. Confirmed attendee suppose to have 19 but only 13 turn up. BAIK. Urgh. Whatever, we have to proceed on our house visit. Is tiring but worth it. =) Formed Human chain, to pass the rice. Heavy leh. And my back hurt again. After we do all the packaging, we finally moved to our House Visit. All of us are being separated in different group. Each of us attached with 1 or 2 Woodland Sec de student lo. =)

Simply love to do volunteer work!!! why? Most of us are familiar with the old adage that ~it is better to give than to receive ~ and nowhere is this phrase more apt than in the voluntary sector. People often derive a great sense of satisfaction from being able to help others who are less fortunate than themselves for whatever reason and get a lot of pleasure from the gratitude that is shown to them as a result. On a similar note, many volunteers often find that by getting involved with a particular cause, it allows them more access to spread a particular message or to influence policies, which can benefit others as a result.

After volunteering,went to lot 1 lo. =) Change Finna Mic and bought my stuff. Eye mask, 1 bottle of Nail Polish remover, 2 bottle of Nail Polish ( 1 green and 1 blue), Detal Floss for sis and 2 liquid eye liner. =) grrr! have to save up liao. =.= After that went to cut hair with Finna at Blk 253 =) My fringe is short! Ohmymy! So which one look better? haha

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Boring lah! I have totally nothing to do. Want to find job but lazy. But Just earn quick money will do ba. As it is more flexible =) All I know how to do, is to blogblogblog. Last time i came by this story and i find it touching la.  Today, nana should share with you all =)  OK, here i go :

A Silent Love

From the very Begining, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background & that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.

Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?"

As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence.

After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"

The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged.

The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.

One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realised that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice......

The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.

During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.

With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phonecalls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....

The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.

With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.

A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead.

When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her ?i have spent a year time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I have not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger- The girl finally smile

WOAH! Touching right? YESYES.HAHA. I like the last part ?i have spent a year time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I have not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger- I have the chance be your voice. HAHA! I wonder if someday happen to me. Choy! I dont want lost my voice uh. Hahas. OKuh. My dream guy is AHEMMM. HAHA. Wont blog it. Teeheee. KK uh. I go paint my nail first. Check out my twitter, for further updates =)  BTW! Remember to click my Nufflang add ya? ;) and tag my blog if free! HOHO!

See below. Stupid Suresh. Tempt me with all the liquor. Ass la him.

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Before you peeps start reading my post, I am apologetic that I going to scold vurglarities. Hope you dont mind ya? Today morning, got this particular asshole (His dp put leehom face) got my msn from my facebook den he ask to webcam uh. Of cox I wont webcam with stranger right. He call den I ignore. But I dont know that my msn plus last time go set auto accept. Shit la! Saw something that I shouldnt see. It freaks me out. Show simi lanjiao on webcam uh? Lanjiao jitao so small still dare to show? Buey pai sey ahh u ? You pervertic idiotic freako fucker! Such an stupid asshole. You have no balls la.

Beware if i see you in reality, i going to make sure your lanjiao break into half and no father day for you! Kan you till lanlan den you know uh.

Seriously,really buey tahan la.Nightmare man! I know it might not be surprising for you guys, but it totally freaks me out. When I see, my hand tremble till i cant close the convo properly. I have to shut my whole msn. Argh. I just hope i can forget this incident asap. Mood totally off for today.

Hold my hand tight, dont let me tremble.

Sorry for my vulgarities. Kids out there, dont learn from jiejie ya? Scold too much vulgarities no good for health. =) I want hughug now. Really. Hais.

Hold me tight, I am scared.

Evening time, went Lot1 with Finna to find her mic =) Met nelson first, to pass him all the 6p for Sem1 & Sem2. Cox his lappy all reformatted. I am still considering whether should I upgrade to window 7 leh. Later have to reinstall everything. So leceh. how uh ? I go upgrade, you help me install can? HAHA!

See! How cool is my MSN window! HAHA! Instead of window live messenger, it is call WLM Louis Vuitton. Chio right? haha.. Oklame.

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MushiMushi! I am back! Woohoo! Got miss me mah? Got right? HAAHAA!

Sat morning went for EYEs ambassador training workshop.  Woke up early in the morning and previous night didnt get enough sleep plus backbone still pain =( . Urgh. Attendance was bad laa. Only, Chad, Minyi, Amalina, Murdifi, Finna, Faiz, Caleb, Yanru, Kelvin, Alice, Kelly, Zee turned up. 12 attendees only plus me 13 uh.  =.= Supposely, we are going to do house visiting. cox we no more brochure, we dont need to do. Weets, dismiss early lor. HAHA! Okok. Go home Go home! Go home, didnt manage to get rest as settled some stuffs till I dont know what the time . I look up the clock, OMG. Have to go prepare for Aviva Ironman 70.3 Triathlon @ East Coast park!

Went to meet Finna baby 9.30pm at usual bus stop and meet Esther girlfriend at City Hall mrt. After meeting them, we all headed to Big Splash. We all dont know how to go uh. Call Jian Min for help.He only give direction lor! SO bad, Never come out fetch us. Later we lost how? HAHA. Ok. Thanks to Finna baby have a sense of good direction, we manage to reached there succesfully =)

I tell u uh, got this bunch of peeps, I name them chicken gang ok? You know what, I brought my pillow along cox i want to rest mah. At least have something soft for me to rest.  Den this Chicken gang laugh at my mighty saver pillow leh. Laugh Laugh, See, See,See. Beware i poke out your eyes den u know uh. Oi, you peeps never see pillow before meh? Laugh wat laugh uh? I know la, I got my CHOUCHOU u all dont have. NannyNannyPooPoo! =p HAHA. Such an ***. Bye. I dont want sit with you all. =p. For the whole night, we went Carls Jr lepak =) Got sofa, but not comfortable =.= I miss my bed. Went back to tentage at 5 plus. So sian. The moment we came in, we heard the Chicken gang laughter. Chicken Backside leh. Want some peace also dont have. You all really a Chicken gang. Sua, forget it. Just wait for the time to pass lor. Backbone still pain. Bear with it lo.

After briefing, we went to our drink station, Finna, Esther, Jian Min, Jack and 100 plus uncle or gorgor? =p Soon, we get to busy lor. Busy pouring water non stop. Hand tiring, keep opening the bottle cap. End up, my backbone damm pain uh. Almost cannot take it. The moment i sit down right, i cant even see properly, Blur view only =.= Dont care. haha. we onli can leave until we see the last man. Wah. the last man hor run halfway and uturn leh. den we wait for so long. Waste time nia. Finally, we can go home le ! HipHipHooray! Got lorry, we all lompang back to the tentage. Yeah! Dont need to walk. Faster go take 30 bucks and go home! Feel shag and backbone pain~

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If i die one day,this song is dedicated to all of YOU=) yah. especially YOU. I scared something will happen. Really. Aku TAKUT! BACKBONE STILL PAIN! I cant stand straight. I cant sleep straight. URGH. Forget it.

No I cant forget this evening Or your face as you were leaving But I guess thats just the way The story goes You always smile but in your eyes Your sorrow shows Yes it shows
No I cant forget tomorrow When I think of all my sorrow When I had you there But then I let you go And now its only fair That I should let you know What you should know
I cant live If living is without you I can't live I cant give anymore I cant live If living is without you I cant give I cant give anymore
Well I cant forget this evening Or your face as you were leaving But I guess thats just the way The story goes You always smile but in your eyes Your sorrow shows Yes it shows
I cant live If living is without you I cant live I cant give any more I cant live If living is without you I cant give I cant give anymore

You dont bother about me anymore. Perhaps I am just paranoid-ing. Bye

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OMG! My Backbone is damn pain now. I dunno what had happen. But I know the moment I woke up, is already pain. I have difficulties walking. Cant really stand straight. Urgh. This is terrible man. That time my teeth pain, cox wisdom tooth came out. Now is my backbone. Baik lah. Lagi Best. Tried not to think to much. Yesterday went back band. Quite alot of alumnis uh. Got ShiQi, JiaQi, Suhaimi, Lionel, Fadhil, Arif, DongQiang. Hais. My Backbone is killing me now. I hope I can sustain Saturday and Sunday. Ohyah. Tomorrow I wont be at home. I will be back on Sunday evening. Cox Morning got Eyes ambassador till 5pm. Den have to faster go home rest, around 10 need go for the Aviva Ironman 70.3 Triathlon @ the Big Splash Playground at East Coast Park.   =) If u want contact me for any purpose, just contact through phone bah. For those who dun have my number, you can get it from my friends. No prank call or weirdo sms please. I wont appreciate that. Thank You.

Below is something i saw on the net, and decided to share with you all .=)

If You Love Someone

If you love some one because you think that he or she is really gorgeous ...then its not love .. its ~ Infatuation ~......

If you let him go knowing that he has to go but he doesn't want to ...thats ~LOVE~

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Tahukah engkau apa yang sedang aku rasakan? Aku penat. Aku takut. Aku tak tau nak cakap apa. Aku sedang keliru. Jika kau rasa apa yang aku rasa, bagaimanakah kau tangani semua ini?

Do you know how exactly I feel know? I am already tired. I am scared everything will just come back again. I am confused now. If my feeling is yours, how will you overcome or deal with it ?

HAHA!! See I so clever! Able to blog in malay too! HAHA! Of cox I got help from Amalina! =) OK. This is how I feeling right now. I dunno how to explain. But just like that uh . Lazy to explain too =) Today went back school for interview session and SLC meeting, got Minyi, Amalina, Kelvin, Didi, Yanru, Keith & Catherine. Interview went fine.  I wonder how am I going to face with so many interviewer if i am the interviewee. HAHA! Anyway great job to the interviewees!! After the interview session, it is meeting time. We did loads of things like callings! Somehow we have become telemarketers le ! HAHA! Not bad! HAHA! Lets go apply for telemarketers jobs someday. HAHA! Looking forward for our SLC BBQ! =) Looking forward for my cypher camp and freshman orientation camp =) Weets going to have juniors soon! HAHAHA.

OKok. I shall blog about out TTSH event too. HAHA! On monday , we have this Tan Tock Seng Donors tea Appreciation ceremony.  Kinda fun! Zulfah scold mi! She scold me Shut up! Cox i keep repeating the pharse Like that uh ? HAHA! OMG! we also Run in and out. Pass message here and there. Ushering the the people in and out . HAHA! When we are bored, we dance like nobody business. I want nobody Nobody but you ( Pointing at you***) ! HAHA! Not only dance we also sing  Truly Madly Deeply =) Thanks to the Acapella team!! Ilove their Truly Madly Deeply  And Nobody ! WOOOTs!

I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
Until the sky falls down on me~

Wah. After event right? Got alot of left over food, we dabao home lor! HAHA! =p This event, we have certificate, we have CE point, we have door gifts, we also can dabao food back. =) Nice right? HAHA!

See what i mean? HAHA

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